One of the things that the pandemic has brought to my life is a lot more routineness. Each week that passes by feels similar to the previous one, and suddenly, it's July! Where did half of 2020 go? As someone who always felt like he had to be doing something, the everyday ritual of waking up, working long hours, playing animal crossing, rinse and repeat took a bit of a toll on me. It certainly didn't help that my birthday, which occurred somewhat recently, reminded me that another year had passed and that I was yet another year older.
Anyway, I stumbled upon a timely video from a YouTuber that I followed from back when I was in high school (time really flies). It really resonated with me because it put into perspective quite a bit of what I was feeling: that I've reached kind of a plateau in my life where everyone around me is doing so many cool things, while I'm just passing time. It served as a reminder that while the life that I envisioned a few years ago looks a lot different from today, my life of today is certainly not bad at all. While I may not be where I want to be in my career or relationships, it's a blessing to be able to be financially stable, be in good health, and have the freedom to pursue my hobbies. I still control this small sphere of influence where what I do can matter a lot to some folks. So it's up to me to make the most of that small sphere of influence.
That was the reminder I needed. Anyway, if you're feeling similar, just know that you're not alone! Hope this helps.
Here is the video: